something i do every few months, maybe more like 6 months, is look at peoples profiles that i added a long time ago and see how they are doing. its positive to see that the majority of people's sites ive glanced at over the years are either gone, not written in anymore, or the people have made a 180 and are "healthy". although i am very happy for these people, i hate the fact that this is something ive been doing for about 3 or 4 years now. is this a sickness or a disease?

"Hi emptyisbeautiful13! It's been 717 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga... "

....and this is my second xanga.

when you were here before, couldnt look you in the eye
youre just like an angel, your skin makes me cry
you float like a feather, in a beautiful world
and i wish i was special, youre so fucking special

i dont care if it hurts

i want to have control

i want a perfect body

i want a perfect soul

but im a creep, im a weirdo
what the hall am i doing here?
i dont belong here.

shes running out again

shes running out

shes run run running out...

hunger hurts, and i want it so bad. i would kill.

hunger hurts but starving works.